Sucky McSucker School

Good God, I have to honestly admit that I am not too fond of this place. I mean, I miss boarding school like hell. And my old boarding school is nothing like this new place, which I,not too severely, detest. It's better being alone by yourself rather than being surrounded by people whom you can't and don't want to talk to. But right now, I hate being alone more than every I'm too used to my thoughts I guess. I have just realised, I've been just missing boarding school. Everything was better there. None of us (I'm assuming) would dream of moving to an another school. KTJ was perfect for me. I had great near perfect friends there, I miss it sorely, no one could replace them. No wonderful boyfriend (hypothetical for the time being) could make me miss them less. It would've been fun for me to tell them everything that had happened. But alas, I am far away physically from them. I seem to be figuratively far from them. This is just aftermath of my paranoia and insecurity. I really believe in us being together again, but for the time being, it looks saddeningly unlikely. Does that mean I need to make new friends? There's no one I seem to like; (enough). I suppose, orientation is the really shittiest part of it all. But I didn't feel connected to the school. I got bad vibes and shit and it's just no good. I miss the greenery in KTJ the new place is one building and everything is cramped and I just want to be back in KTJ. I got a little emotional on how I would have to face college all on my own, and how I would have less time to speak to them, and how it actually rendered me briefly to tears. I got over it, and tried talking the stuff out. I realised, I had to give people chances. Some of them didn't even attempt to even talk to me, I feel like the incredible estrogenic monster in a potato sack. On to other things, they had ice breakers, all I can say is it was counter productive, everybody was closed off and especially certain people. Shy for no damn reason. And there were people called 'Ginger' and 'Virgie'. I wanted to laugh and pray for them at the same time. Oh well, there were none that caught the wandering eye. All but a few, but 'twas not near the compelling quality of my other paramours. I shouldn't think it should happen here. I should stop expecting it and focus to the real important stuff. Like acing all my exams well enough to apply for scholarships to go the UK. Or if I like economics, to the US I go! (to apply for scholarships, that is) so, I'm trying to come to terms with all I have to deal with . I need to acclimatise to the whatever it is KDU's climate is) and settle in. Work hard, and get that scholarship. I know I can and I know I will. Believe in me, God and people reading this. I hated the campus, but then again, that's not what I'll be doing, I'll be studying in the library all the time. That sounded better in my head. So I met the head of my department. He's nice. Easy to talk to. And the lady at the reception of my department. She was nice :) well, it's not all bad, weed out all the diploma and mass comm students and you have all the good people. Well, I've met some nice people on my second and third day. It's been better and I liked both my lecturers. My econs teacher is making me like econs. God bless her. And my law lecturer started off a little dodgy and odd, but he's actually quite alright. So, I guess, it's about time to get over my time at KTJ and get used to being a KDU student, and start to really open up to my new friends. They're really nice and they're quite different, which is not bad, it's good. I need different. Rant ends here. Bye all x